As you can see most of my Deviations have been removed...I could almost cry right now

I don't actually don't know what to do, so I really think that I just should give up my account on dA

I am really sorry for everyone who watched me because I'm certainly not able to continue making the same stuff...
Maybe I'll come back with a livejournal (if someone is interested..) or I keep my stuff just for me and my friends in real life...
I don't really know if I should cry or start to smash something near me....
Honestly I'm very pissed right now because I'm definitely not the only one who uses this kind of material....or maybe there is just someone who doesn't like me and wants to harm me

I mean an envier or someone like that without sounding too arrogant
For the moment I think I will only come back to look what my friends here on dA did....hopefully nothing like this will happen to them as well
I would be really pleased if somebody could give me a hint what to do right now....
I'm sorry for every mistake I've made in this entry because I wrote that in a very big rage
